It suddenly hit me. I made our house payment on line, like usual, and then it hit me that half of the month of May is gone. I have half a month more, and then I am voluntarily going to submit myself for major abdominal surgery… and then I started breathing faster and I could feel my pulse race!
Kimberly Hahn talked on one of her many tapes about her scheduled C-section births. I guess all 6 of her children were delivered by C-section. The night before one of the births, everyone in the house was happy, and anticipating a new baby. The house was all a flutter, and she had to go into her room, close the door, and scream into the pillow because she knew who it was that was going to be sliced open, and she knew who it was that would have to endure stitches, cramps, and the intense pain that is only managable with the gift of prescription narcotics! Gee whiz – I should re-listen to that tape because I now know exactly what she was feeling. And in a way I think it’s worse if you’ve done it before – C-section or vaginal – because you know what’s coming!!
I still have a lot on my plate before I get there though. I have 6 more soccer games, and then Calvin’s 4 or so games to ref. My daughter’s dress rehearsal and dance recital are this week and the boys’ piano recital is next week. Oh yea, and sometime after that I turn 46!.
I’ve all but given up on homeschooling. I’m still making the boys read everyday because I just think reading is crucial- but it’s going to be a Saxon Math summer! Mr. Pete says he will help. In the meantime I have to figure out a curriculum for next year on a shoestring budget.
One thing that has really made the time pass quickly is learning this new account I picked up for working at home. I have always transcribed medical reports from tape. When a long-time client of mine cut back the work load, I was able to find a digital account where the voice files come to me, and I send them back without once hitting the “print” button. In fact, no paper is involved on my end at all. So I’ve had to learn the technology and I’ve had to learn this new terminology too. (I had never done this specialty before.) So that has been the challenge of my 3rd trimester!
Today my 7-year-old, started crying during school time. He grabbed me tight and started crying. Apparently my almost 10-year-old told him sometimes mommies die having a baby, and that had been bothering Noah. I’m thinking that at my OB appointment this week, I might ask my doctor if the younger kids can come in to meet him next time so that they can feel a bit better about everything. I’m thinking a tour of the hospital might be good too. Mr. Pete is thinking I worry too much!
All of this was flying through my head last night, along with all the misunderstanding and hard feelings regarding the blog. I woke up every hour between my head swirling and my need to make frequent bathroom trips. What I need to do is to start being still. To “be still” as the scriptures say. Easier said than done but it’s something I sense I need to do. I also want to hit confession and ask for the annointing (just in case) to be spiritually ready for this baby’s delivery. Can I get all this done in the next 3 weeks? Stay tuned…
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