You know what I don’t see out there?
I turned 50 this past summer, so it’s that time. I don’t keep track – because I don’t keep track of much of anything, really – but I think I’m done. Maybe 2-3 times over the past year, and not at all for six months or so?
And the strangest thing of all is how few “symptoms” I’ve had. About 3 years ago – I know because we were still in Indiana, and it was winter – I had 2 nights of hot flashes. And that’s it. My heart races occasionally, which I’ve researched and found is a consequence of menopause as your hormones sort of run past each other and can’t get organized. I’m distractable, but then I always have been. I also don’t know how much of any possible mental/emotional symptoms I can blame on menopause or on Mike’s death. The most noticable symptoms to me have been that it’s harder to lose weight and my hair, which is definitely thinner and dryer. Witch Hair Coming!
I mean…if this is it…is this it? I’m very glad if it is. If this is it, it doesn’t deserve a book, much less a blog post.
I suppose if I were still married it would all be more significant to me. After all, I do have a five-year old. To go through menopause with a kindergartner is certainly unusual in these days and times. Up until the moment Mike died (when I was 48 and still apparently fertile) there was still and always the welcome possibility of another baby
I have been having fairly mild symptoms of menopause as well. My body temperature is higher, especially in my hands. I don't have frequent "hot flashes" but I do note that stress can bring them on. When my mother was dying just sitting by her bedside would make my hands super hot. Now I will feel hot all over with very little provocation - like if my computer freezes up or if I'm under a deadline, or if one of the reports the doctor needs is missing. Stuff like that.
Heart racing - check. Probably on and off for the past five years or so.
My hair is still in great shape though and even the lady who cuts my hair thinks it's gorgeous - silver streaks and all. Unfortunately I notice hair coming in other places that I don't really want it and I will probably end up asking for a lighted magnifying mirror for Christmas to spot those renigade follicles coming up in places I never thought to look before. Still with all of the horror stories I've heard about menopause, I'll take a few ambiguous symptoms any day!
If Amy hadn't turned off comments I would have comissurated with her on going through menopause with a kindergartner. It's not very usual and I only know a few people in real life who have done it or are doing it. It does make this part of life sweeter. While some of my friends are in the midst of emptying their nests and making that adjustment, I'm still playing with Barbies and sidewalk chalk, and wouldn't have it any other way.